I know this is going to sound ridiculous, but I struggle with the idea of working; there, I said it. Lazy, in my opinion, is the last word that could be used to describe my personality so I know that has nothing to do with my desire to be a non-working, yet completely productive member of society. My desire is to be a super involved, stay-at-home mom but that is for a much, much, much later chapter in my life. For the more immediate future, I am making progress. I realize that I need to probably use my $60,000+ education that I have shed blood, sweat, and tears over for the past 4 years. So today, as I have said, today I have made progress. Probably at least once a day someone asks me what I want to do with my nursing degree. My response, I either leave the questioner speechless with a blunt, "well, ideally not work a day in my life," or I lie, "I'm not sure yet, just nothing in a hospital." Part of the lie is true, I have yet to experience work in a hospital that isn't miserable or vomit inducing. So, back to the progress I made... for the first time since starting school, today I'm glad I'll be a full-fledged nurse come May 8th. Why? Haiti. I usually have a really hard time grasping the reality and gravity of natural disasters or acts of terrorism and if you were to talk to my roommate, Charis, about this she would tell you that I have a bad habit of cracking horribly insensitive jokes about these two tragic things. I have been watching the news and reading the blog of a missionary family that serves in Port Au Prince and my heart is aching for this country and it's people. Someday soon, it will be completely within my control to be apart of relief efforts, God forbid something like this happens again during my working career. That is neat. I feel a little inspired, I know the picture is super dramatic... and maybe it is a Navy Lieutenant Doctor in the limelight but I see that guy in the T-shirt holding that bag of IV fluids, THAT COULD BE ME... Also, I haven't mentioned this idea to Karl. Surely he'll go for it, he's strong and can dig people out while I save them. Maybe I'll use this degree after all...
You are hilarious!! Love you!
ReplyDeletedear hannah. i do not want to work either. unless its in africa or folding laundry and making pies. i feel-ya.
ReplyDeleteok hannah i totally know what you mean. after working for a little bit now, i just don't know if i'm made to be a working person like the norm... i'd rather be very flexible & able to fly to haiti on any day. of course, i'd have to work on my crazy sensitivity to the sight of blood & become a nurse if i wanted to be a member of the international emergency red cross team, but that's another story. or, i've thought that maybe i'm just meant to facilitate something with people where there aren't 50,000 things to remember and make decisions about in one day. and then there's the pressure of being responsible for 16 (yes, only 16!) children who belong to other people.
ReplyDeletebut for now, i think i'll continue changing the world one first grader at a time.
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and thankfully, the plan is already laid out for us & we just have to follow the footsteps, even if that means we work. =]